Shallow

The shallowness of this world hurts my soul
Shallow people are the cause of rejection
I seen them and I despise them
And as i look in the mirror I see the worst of it
I judge and i hate on them
But I'm the same
I claim to love the Father
But in my shallowness I've yet to find my first love
I've heard about Him
Heard bout what He did for me
But i know nothing
I claim to love the Father
How can I love someone I don't know
This stranger called Jesus has saved my life
And in my shallowness I've yet to know Him
I praise Him and worship Him
at church...
I worship and praise someone I barely know...
How is that possible??
How can i stand there and tell Him He's amazing
When I don't know Him

In my shallowness I forgot to love Him
I...self... has been to important to love the one who died for me
In my shallowness His love still remains
He covers the bad I've caused
How can He love someone so shallow and so broken
A love I can't comprehend
And yet self is still more important
Why is that??
I know He's the only God
But no revelation
I've heard this and I've heard that
But self has taken reign
I've been living the good life
a life the world says to live
a life that has brought.....
Well a life that has brought torment and hurt....
A life that hasn't been worth living
a shallow life
The only way to change
Find the truth
Find a relationship
Find Him
Know Him
and His truth will MAKE you free.

Hey, I'm back. =]

It's been awhile but i have some much to share with you guys. Please forgive me for being gone for soooo long. but the Lord is doing great things and i can't wait to write more and share with you what the Lords been showing me. Heres a song that i can't get enough of

First Love by ALM:UK

Brokeness

The times when everything is going wrong
How can I fix what I've done?
I get so angry and let it captivate me

I'm broken inside
The hurt that has scarred my heart for so long has become apart of me
I know nothing more
It's been apart of me for so long
What will happen if I let it go?
It's just gonna happen again
Why let myself get to the point where I'm so vulnerable
It's just gonna happen again

How do I trust a God I've never seen
How can He possibly know how I feel
How can He mend a heart so broken
How can I trust He won't fail me
Like all the Rest

I'm broken inside
The reminisce of it stains the words that come out of my mouth
It's a broken way of life
Pain.Sorrow.Anger

I can't do it!
I can't live like this anymore
My tormented soul has taken reign for so long
and It's brought nothing good
I can't live like this

So Lord I'm scared
But I have to let this go
You Died for my sins
You went to the cross for what I've done
You took the stripes to make me whole

So heal my heart
Invade my heart
I'm trusting in You
I'm finally trusting You

Invade my heart
I'm not a vessel to do nothing but glorify the one who died for me.

Absolutly amazing!!!

Found This on YouTube it is lifechanging!

From Joyce Meyer

‎"If we spent more priority time with God, we wouldn't have so many emergencies that rob us of our time."
-Joyce Meyer-

prayer and sin

Not only does sin hinder prayer; prayer hinders sin. The two are always opposed. The more careless ewe are about sin, the less we will pray. The more we pray, the less careless we will be about sin. Both sin and prayer are powerful forces. Which one is moving you???

--Dr. Alvin Vander Griend--

Just as u can identify a tree by its fruit, you can identify a person by their actions

Understanding

I recently heard a teaching on UNDERSTANDING. Understand means to grasp something BUT ALSO to grasp the value of it. So many times when we read something in the word we think we "understand" it but we don't place a value on it therefore it doesn't impact our lives. It doesn't become revelation knowledge. It's not real to us and if it isn't real and if it doesn't change our lives then we can be talked out of it. This really hit me because so many times i quote the Word of God because it's the word but I don't place a value on it. Like when I confess that "My God will meet all MY needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" I meant it at first but then it became a tradition to say it. Meaning I wasn't placing a value on those words and I was repeating them because maybe it worked at one time for me or it worked for someone else at one time but I wasn't being lead by the Lord to quote that in my life everyday so it lost it's value to be. It was real in my life.

So many times we hear different things like Sister Pam quoted Isaiah 53:5 "But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed" and she quoted it for a week straight and she got healed of back problems and knee problems. If it worked for her I'm going to try it. But were you lead by the Lord to do that? Maybe the Lord is directing you to do something else like go to a healing service coming up. But you're to busy following a "tradition" instead of listening for the direction of the Lord. This is something that I have done quite a few times but I'm learning now that we have to seek the Lord and get a NOW direction for out lives. Not what has worked for someone else but what the Lord wants for your life at this time.

I hope this makes sense I have sooo many thoughts running through my head. If you have any thoughts or questions please comment. =]

Worry

Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its trouble, it only empties today of its joy

Somebody is waiting on the other side of your obedience.
-Tim Storey